I have always been frustrated when others underestimate me! I have reasonable self-knowledge of what my skills and gifts are. When I decided to go to seminary and become a minister, I had to advocate for myself as a person called to preach and teach about God. Even my own family had their doubts. I am a woman. I was more interested in the music part of church than the preaching. I wasn’t involved in campus ministries as a student. I bristled, perhaps like Jesus here when he hears that his testimony on his own behalf is invalid.
Yet, aside from God, we know ourselves best. Even when we don’t show it to others, we have the best sense of where we come from, what our gifts are, and who we are called to be. The struggle is that – depending on circumstances – we can’t always let our light shine. We can’t always live into our fullest selves as children of God, because we cannot overstep our boundaries, because someone else is already doing the thing, or because we don’t have the degrees or certificates to support our claims of self-knowledge.
Jesus, though frustrated with the words of the Pharisees, recognizes that he has come into this world to be the light of life. Jesus has come to be the hope for salvation for all who suffer or struggle. Jesus doesn’t wait for permission or a “no-judgment zone.” Jesus speaks for himself, knowing that he has already received the great recommendation from God.
Holy Spirit, empower us to shine our light for others. Embolden us when patience is not required. Encourage us when we need affirmation. Amen.
Rev. Doodle Harris
Chaplain, Hastings College
Words for Waiting 